"I Was Scared Of The Demons Inside Me": Sarah Ferguson Reveals Her Deepest Worries And Darkest Fears
August 23, 2018 12:04 By Fabiosa
There is no woman in the world who doesn’t want to be happy, and Sarah Ferguson isn’t an exception. While it might seem she has ruined her marriage, there’s always another side of the coin, and here’s a bit about it.
Marriage in a cage
In one of Sarah Ferguson’s numerous interviews, she opened up about the most private sides of her life.
She revealed the following in one of her interviews:
For the first 5 years of our marriage I saw him 40 days a year.
She wanted to marry the man she loved, but instead, she got a golden cage. She had a castle, but there was no man in it.Embed from Getty Images
Her darkest fears
At first glance, she seems to be a strong woman, stronger than others, but in reality, Sarah Ferguson is as fragile as a vase. And she admitted that in one of her interviews.
Darkness that’s what she was afraid of. The woman used to sleep with her eyes open because of her fear something might appear. Luckily, such nights are over.
I sat up in bed and slept with my eyes open. I had to sleep with my eyes open because I was so frighten of the dark I though if I slept with my eyes open I could see any spooks coming towards me. And yet I realise that in fact the fear of the dark was the fear of the demons inside myself. All the fears and anxiety I had to come to terms with inside myself. And suddenly I realised that it is all alright really, everything is okay. I’m still okay and it felt like crystal water. It’s a long way and it’s a big battle but I’m here and it is alright.
What is more, she admitted that was actually not the fear of darkness itself but the fear of her own demons.
There were hard times, but there were things that kept her going. First of all, these were her lovely daughters, Princess Eugenie and Princess Beatrice. And the second thing was charity, and it’s still going. Sarah Ferguson opened up to Evening Standard:
It has certainly made me a better mother to my daughters Beatrice and Eugenie, giving me a sense of perspective, and allowing me to encourage them to use the platform they have to get involved in charitable work. It has probably saved my life, too, by giving me purpose through hard times. As my grandmother always said, “When you feel bad about yourself, go out there and do something for somebody else.”
These are great words her granny said. Indeed, people should concentrate less on themselves and try to see a bigger picture. It’s a key to success, and Sarah has already learnt it.