"I Wish That I Were Dead": Marilyn Monroe’s Poems And Notes Express Her Real Soul And Despair

Date August 6, 2019 16:37

Marilyn Monroe, model, actress, singer was arguably one of the most famous women of the twentieth century. Monroe has become an iconic representative of fame and female beauty. She is widely regarded as one of the most influential figures in American culture. While there are many fascinating facts about her life, one sphere has been rarely discussed.

Marilyn Monroe and poetry

The notebooks and jottings of Marilyn Monroe found after her death reveal her sensitive, cerebral character with a poetic soul. Her handwritten poems, letters and journal entries were published in a volume called Fragments: Poems, Intimate Notes, Letters by Marilyn Monroe.

These notes are the writings of a poet, they are intimate, unfiltered, and often unsettling:

"On the stage—I will
not be punished for it
or be whipped
or be threatened
or not be loved
or sent to hell to burn with bad people
feeling that I am also bad.
or be afraid of my genitals being
or ashamed
exposed known and seen— "

Monroe also emerges in the pages of her notes as a surprisingly strong writer, capable of conveying very clearly and beautifully, in vivid images, her own pain.

You began and ended in air
but where was the middle?... "

In her notes, she expressed her fears and hopes:

"I guess I have always been deeply terrified to really be someone’s wife since I know from life one cannot love another, ever..."

"Only parts of us will ever
touch only parts of others —
one’s own truth is just that really — one’s own truth..."

Her poems give us a chance to look behind the curtains of her public life, to understand what was going on in her soul while her husband was having his mid-life crisis and cheating on her.

"...I wish that I were
dead — absolutely nonexistent —
gone away from here — from

Fan's reaction to her writings

For Marilyn's fans, her poems is the great treasure and the key to her heart and feelings:

Her notes add a cerebral, imaginative and personal dimension to the cultural icon that is Marilyn Monroe. It enables us to relate to her as a thinking, feeling woman with desires and opinions, like all of us. What a great woman she was!